Monday, March 28, 2011

#6. Shine On You Crazy Diamond



Sitting outside in the cold,  I realized I have a lot of acknowledging and gratifying to do. Acknowledge life. Acknowledge my parents. Acknowledge the wonderful new friends that I have made. Acknowledge the gravity of the opportunities that have miraculously appeared in the pathway of my life. Acknowledge a wonderful cup of coffee. Gratify the barista that makes that wonderful cup of coffee. Acknowledge the beautiful trees sprouting to life as spring lays its anchor before it sails away clearing the bay for summer to set in. Acknowledge MYSELF.

'Shine on you crazy diamond' - a classic Pink Floyd, nothing can beat the feeling (atleast for me) of lying on the cold ground, looking up at the starry skies with pink floyd blasting on my headphones. Weirdly, those are  the moments where my brain revs up its monotonous -activity -rusted engine and goes into a sort of a brainstorming mode.

I know that my interpretation of this song might not exactly be right but as my friend Razan puts it "songs are written so one can interpret the shit out of them".  I have learnt to embrace the crazy diamond that has been through a lot of experiences and has gotten its sparkle after years of being buried under stressful adversities. 

I  might quintessentially NOT be the stereotypical girl. I am weird. I am as people would like to put it a big nerd. I have the quirkiest taste in music. I get lost in my own fantasy world and often catch myself staring into space a little more than necessary. I rather stargaze and spend the night with my telescope. I rather read a good book than gossip. And the day i came to terms with this fact after hiding my quirky, 'nerdy' side behind all the high school gossip, fake giggles as boys passed by and layers and layers of kohl( messily applied in the school bathrooms before the last bell rang), was probably the happiest day of my life. 

Shine on you crazy diamond, for me means never ever try to deceive yourself and ensconce the true you. Go on and enjoy the roller coaster ride to the fullest.  Scream your lungs out, sing your own song and embrace your true colors. Sure, life  does have a funny working mechanism. Sometimes smiles and sometimes tears - it's fuels. But it all starts to make sense when you embody your so called 'weirdness' and shine on like a brightly colored, truly mad, crazy , wacky, nonsensical diamond that you are!

On a side note I'm posting a link to this really beautiful song that i am currently and absolutely  addicted to..

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

#5. Utopia.


I wrote this poem last semester. I still consider it incomplete but for the lack of a better ending at this point I decided to post it anyways... 

Lost in a garden of eternal hope,
thoughts of you fog my senses.
Bittersweet poison spreading through my veins
Hurls me into a world of unfulfilled fantasies.
Every frown a smile, every tear a dewdrop here,
Memories come alive.
I forget to miss you, I forget the wait.
Tender music drowns the vain babble,
Not afraid anymore, a new life begins.
A real soul is reborn, knowing no disappointment.
Enamored by the starry skies,
A broken heart beams with euphoria,
A world of infinity, farewells cease to exist.
Over the horizon, i can hear my name
Severing all connections , i delve deeper
into the beautiful utopia.
A perfect land, of my making
A make believe fairytale with a happy ending.
conflicts die, surprises galore
Sadness bereft, happiness thrives.
Wishes come to life here
Love is all i feel, it is all i see.
Shackles of the past are broken
Moving forward in time,
It runs so slow here.
Autumn leaves of every hue,
pristine white snow
beaming sunshine, gleaming flowers
All coexist here.
A teardrop falls, the last ever to flow
A teardrop of joy.
Exploring this beautiful ghost town
I am alone, not lonely.